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I took 3 grams of shrooms and on the comedown, I started getting my usual “it would be very fun but very shameful to have sex with a guy” thoughts. It made me so upset. Why am I so messed up that I’m super into women but every now and then think sex with a guy could be very nice??? I usually shoved those thoughts back in my head where they were to be forgotten (until the next time they popped up).

I went to have a shower with my wife to try and shake this feeling off. Halfway through the shower it comes back like a fucking train through my chest and I collapse to the floor sobbing. My life is genuinely over and my world is spiralling out of control. She asks me what’s wrong and I tell her everything. I’m the most ashamed I’ve ever been in my life and wish I could cease to exist in that moment.

She responds “oh that means you’re bi! That’s awesome! That means we can have MMF threesomes!”

All of a sudden it clicks. Guys can be bi too. It’s not just for women. This horrific self hatred, shame, and guilt that made me feel like a true outcast and alien my entire life was unnecessary.

I go online and all of a sudden I realize that there are thousands and thousands of guys just like me.

Fucking wild.

She’s the only one who knows and will know because my entire family is very homophobic. My father sat us all down once and said “if I find out ANY of you are gay you won’t be on this earth for much longer”.


I want to point out that not all Jews support the Israeli government with what’s going on in Palestine right now. I see this sentiment all over the internet and Lemmy.

It’s split down political lines. Right wing Jews are more likely to support the Israeli government and their actions, and left leaning and most centrist Jews are appalled.

Please don’t lump all Jews as being supportive of this horrific situation. That’s how you get society (again) to blanket hate all Jews.




What an interesting conclusion to come to. You must live a rich inner life.




You need to be the hero you all are waiting for. The German people in the 30s all waited for some magical saviour to come and none did.



The goal is to indoctrinate people 10-30 with these values so if anything, it will be promoted to the front page more often and free. More eyes= more conversions.


I’m permanently IP banned from Reddit. During the time when they forced everyone off of third party apps, I posted multiple times in relevant discussions about Lemmy and other Fediverse alternatives. One morning when I logged in my account had a message from Reddit admins that my account and IP address was banned and that any future accounts created would be circumventing the ban and would also be banned.

More reason to leave that site anyway.


But there’s no guarantee that if the time came where someone was in need, they would actually act and give up things on hand.

I grew up thinking that friends and loved ones took care of each other when in need. I even dropped big things to help those I loved. My mom neglected her health until she needed an emergency surgery and once I found out I dropped a final exam in uni to make sure she got there and took her meds.

When I had a serious emergency though, I was completely alone. Both parents, all family and friends. You have friends until they decide you don’t offer them enough. It’s too much energy expended to maintain dynamics like that with multiple people. You end up feeling worthless and that takes a big toll on your health.


I went abroad where a lot of Americans were. I ended up fucking one and his wife. That wasn’t important to the rest of the story but I really feel proud of myself for that and can’t brag anywhere else.

Anyways, from the Americans I met, the overall majority of them were not very aware of what goes on in the news. The common sentiment was that they tuned out from all the news after November and still have to show up to their jobs so to them, nothing is really changing. Was eye opening.


Absolutely. I’m not disabled but I can say with confidence there are genuinely zero good people on this planet. Me included. People are truly only in it for themselves and will cast aside and trample anyone who gets in their way.

Learned that first from my parents. Even if they’re related to you, they will throw you under the bus at their earliest convenience.


So many people who are mentally and cognitively bankrupt own houses. They never do any maintenance on them, or if they do, they never do it right. And yet, their houses aren’t (always) falling apart.

Houses are more sturdy than our anxieties convince us. Fix things little by little as they come, prioritize what comes first. Your house won’t fall apart or blow up. This is what I tell my wife when she gets nervous about something creaking.


You can be Jewish and even support the idea of a Jewish homeland while also being fervently appalled by the actions of the state of Israel (Netanyahu, West Bank settlements, unarmed Palestinians shot/killed, houses being bulldozed, mass displacements).



A government case management system with thousands of citizens data along with their citizens numbers next to their full address, used for active cases relating to people and their money. This spreadsheet was on the desktop of a coworker and that coworker only.


It’s part of the federal government. Also it’s been investigating Elons companies. These are the only two criteria necessary for firing thousands of workers and collapsing the department.