While many times it is a gift it is a curse if we suppose to be with someone. We go on a road trip? You barely close the door I am asleep. We ride buss I am asleep as soon as I sit down. Air plane I wake up 8 hours later. Hang out in bed I am gone.
I have to fight to stay awake but that is in vain. I will lose the fight five minutes later.
That reason I am angry so often is because I have anxiety.
Now this may be because I am oldish. But I grew up in world where anxiety and depression. all those things luckily existed but where associated with sadness or apathy.
So a lot of situations where I got anxiety, for example to be late or risk of asking stupid question I became really angry.
Making it extremely hard for people to deal with me because of the association was not something that was naturally occurring for people.
So last year I found an article about it and it honestly changed my life. I still get angry but now I can actually try healthy coping mechanisms instead of fighting anything.
While I see the world with same problematic lenses I draw a different conclusion.
If nothing matters why not remove buts from life!
Travel the world. Eat things that are not healthy. Take a simple job because no point chasing the future. Help out other people. Test all the hobbies you want but afraid of.
The world is fucked but it doesnβt mean your life have to be fucked.
A man gets a scam letter and decides to figure out why he is being catfished.