I suspect I’ve undiagnosed manic-depressive disorder, but either way I get heavy existential dread for 1-4 weeks straight, then reoccurring again in 1-3 months. I also get similar pressure from my industry. So I do feel you :(

Followed by brrrrrrBRRRRRRRaaaaAAaAAaAKRrrrRKrrrKRrrkrKRrKrrKrRkrrrrrrrrrrr, in my experience.

This seems like the right take. It’s based on expectations.