Hi! I’m Nikki K. Nikki!

What do I do?

I’m an artist and programmer, I’m currently rekindling my creative drive

What do you use to draw?

I draw on a Huion Camvas and I use Krita for the software.

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Cake day: Jun 11, 2023

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If you think Super Meat Boy is hard oh boy do I have one for you.

The End Is Nigh is also an Edmund McMullen platformer, but with a much higher emphasis on precision. The game is technically short, but there are just so many easy ways to die that you have to get good to beat it.

It also has a little modding community that has produced some even more nightmarish levels to go along with it.


All of The Grumps’ Ten Minute Power Hour videos.

Never in my life have I been more invested in a show than this one


And if I really hit that accelerator like people want me to, the thing slips, stops, and then suddenly engages full force and I burn out. So that’s not much safer either


I have no choice but to do this in my current car, the transmission is fucked and if I accelerate too fast it slips and I don’t go any faster. So I slowly go to the speed limit and slowly slow to a slow stop


I have dreams where I’m stressing so much that I grind my teeth, and then they start crumbling and everytime I chew I break my teeth apart more


That’s fun to know haha, I always thought that it was constant and some people just had it worse


It’s hard to stray away from caffeine later on since my job is in the morning and I have to stay alert until at least dusk since my S.O. doesn’t have a license and she works afternoons and nights.

Also first I heard of the chicken liver and creatine stuff, what’s the supposed effects of those?


It’s really difficult to do nothing when you’re so used to being occupied though, like all the things i do are involved, I gotta find new things that arent involved… wack


Well I was diagnosed years ago with it actually haha. Though it was never this severe. The way it manifested back then was far more emotional, it usually never fucked with my motivation or energy this hard, I would just have a week or two of awful venting and bad sketches, then all was well after that.

For a good 2 years I had no symptoms at all, and I had stopped taking the medication a little before that since I felt that it wasn’t needed?

Anyhow it seems really odd for it to come back in a completely different, and somehow more debilitating way.


I was thinking about taking a break from my job but I’m currently training a few new people so I have to wait a little bit longer -_- And it’s very difficult for me to be unproductive. There’s this itch in my head i can’t scratch unless I’m working on some project or thinking hard about solving a problem I have.

Though the hardest part would be trying to ‘disconnect’. I’m pretty heavily relied upon for my own job, and my SO works out of town so I usually have to check in to see what she needs. Social media can probably go first though, was already thinking about deleting the big apps off my phone.

trying to set my mind into the ‘shut up, stop thinking so hard idiot’ mode will be a challenge as well. Though recently I’ve enjoyed some of the brain dead times since I could just have silence.

it’s an odd.


How do you deal with bad cyclic burnout?
For some odd reason I burnout very frequently, or more like I get so brain dead that I literally cannot even come up with an Idea of what to do, let alone act on it. It feels like when I even try to start I get so exhausted that I have to lay down. It always happens after I'm the most productive, but my down time feels so much longer than the time I get to create. I'd say I have at least 4 days to a week of productivity, and about 2 - 3 weeks of burnout. It's nuts. The cycle repeats, though it can vary wildly in how long each part is. I'm starting to get hella annoyed since I haven't drawn a thing in over a year and I was finally getting back into the groove at least doodling daily, just to be derailed hard. I was thinking that I just lack creativity, but it became this catch-22 of "I have to actually draw with purpose and make things that I enjoy" and "I am so fucking tired that even opening a sketchbook or cleaning makes me want to take a nap / drop into a dead sleep". What are your thoughts?
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The cement thing probably, I haven’t heard that one before either


That family crap is awful, I would be blessed to never speak a word to my relatives ever again. Luckily though, I’m on a 2 year streak


prolly 2nd, mornings are really busy depending on where you work


I find it very entertaining. No clue if it will work or not but now reddit is emailing me pictures of John Oliver constantly and it’s always a coin flip if it’s actual porn or not since it’s always marked NSFW.