Hahaha you are getting paranoid,
And about antifa, I think antifa more like the friends we made along the way.
Antifa will live as long as people are fighting against fascism. It is more of an idea then an organization, but it becomes more organized when fascism raises.
One of the main reasons I like Lemmy is that I can ask these kind of questions without fear. And you can too(although you ISP is another matter entirely).
Wishful thinking IMO as a citizen of another failed state, you will see in time how little the government will do to protect public interests and how blatant the corruption will become.
Every month or so I find some news and think “this cannot be so obvious and go unpunished, surely this time…” and nothing happenes and next month it happens again…
https://www.positive.news/ is what you are looking for.
And for distraction I use: https://youtube.com/@dailydoseofinternet
But in the end of the day it doesn’t really help, the only other thing that can help you is joining a group that fights for what you think it is important, that way at least you know you are doing something to help. Be the smart person who leads to de-escalation!