I get it, but I want you to recognize that thinking there isn’t a way to improve things can be seen as propaganda. I understand that the situation can feel bleak and hopeless, but what I try to do is look for small changes. While we cannot make all necessary changes quickly, we can make a small difference, even if it’s just a little. If things are too difficult, there’s no shame in surviving as long as possible. Sometimes, all we can do is buy ourselves some extra time.

You are a person who values efficiency, there are companies that will take advantage of that and make you burnout then fire you if you don’t have protections or do not live in a country that have them.

Some of those people that you noticed also someday wanted to make everything better and efficient, but they can’t, because most companies follow a hierarchy that do not accept changes coming from bellow to the top.

You already noticed that you can become like this, the difference will be your values, ethics and which companies will you work for, some companies can and will make you fall into hierarchy and conformism, unfortunately.

If you are young and have that option maybe search for more flexible jobs where they will accept ideas and try things like startup’s but they are often chaotic and unstable also.

I hope some of it help you, be careful to not burnout think about the long-term also.

It is the Tendency to speak rapidly and frenziedly, as if motivated by an urgency not apparent to the listener if she is bipolar antidepressants could be too stimulating cause a person to feel the need to talk a lot and feel very uncomfortable when people are silent or between topics.

You are free to dislike people and to choose who will be your friends, your sister also have this freedom, maybe you could offer help if things get too rough with Lena, and give advice if needed, helping people is not easy specially if Lena doesn’t accept it or want it.

If she is bipolar antidepressants could cause her to have pressured speech, if I was you I would observe her behavior and see if she are having difficulties or another symptoms and talk with her doctor directly. Also you could give her a journal to be an alternative form of expression if you are not available to listen.

They are all creative as fuck, great media if you can suspend reality a little bit. The names are different because the countries they came from, but the context of the media and stories are very similar they also influence each other.