I feel down. I haven’t felt happy in a long while / few months. The danger of depression is there but I believe I’m not at that stage yet.
I’m down because I’ve made no progress at a project for work for a few months now. Everything seems to be breaking and out of my control, it’s a bit tiresome to deal with. Plus the Tariffs have derailed whatever FI plans I had, so I’m pretty much stuck here.
During lunch with my colleagues today some of them expressed that my home country is desirable to live in from a security and convenience perspective (from Singapore). But Singapore is also soul-less and boring, and that irks me. I still want to have the chance to live overseas in a cooler and more relaxed climate, but yeah with the job market being shit and tariffs ruining everything, I might be stuck in Singapore for life.
My feed on Instagram is filled with Nature / Science Documentaries, Comic and Cartoons Reels (Pokemon, Tom and Jerry, etc). But sometimes comments will exhibit the usual shenanigans (i.e. “I don’t believe in evolution”), or accounts that used to be legit suddenly devolve into advertisement spam.
I make sure my preferences are kept by liking the content / posts that cater to them so the algorithm shows me more of them. Of course, I also set a timer on Android so that I don’t spend too much time on the platform (20 mins a day)
Virtual Lego Assembler; the Virtual Legos are Libraries / PaaS APIs